On being “smart” and mental illness

The frustrating thing about mental illness is, even when you know what’s going on – when you have a diagnosis, and a slightly-better-than-a-layperson’s understanding of psychology and neurochemistry, and a treatment plan – you can still be thrown for a loop. Even when you know that the voices in your head are just in your head, or that the thousands of things you’re worried are going to happen are almost certainly not going to happen, or that disappointing some random stranger is not going to matter in the grand scheme of things, sometimes you can just slip up and do a thing because your brain was like !!?!?!?!? and your mind went “Yep, that seems reasonable and not at all insane, let’s do that.”